If only that were true. Pieces I spent days on were read by a handful of people. A piece I wrote in 45 minutes 70,000+ Sting's most famous song, "Roxanne" was written in under an hour, mostly his goofing around for his own amusement. Many artists mention this strange phenomenon of their best work coming out fully formed. The Greeks weren't wrong about the "muses".
Sitting down every day can be forced. Writing something someone wants to read can't.
Anxiety no matter what, of course. But try to limit the amount of self-destructive anxiety, where you believe if you work harder or better you'll be more successful.
Another thing most accomplished artist say, each day they might as well be starting from the beginning.
The problem with Haque and Wildfire is they wrote to be read by a certain group of people. They're good at it. No doubt in their pieces. No conversations with readers.
You're actually curious about what you write. You listen to other people. That's the hardest way to make a living doing so, but some do, somehow or another.
Would it be better to work at Starbucks and write anything you want, or write Umair-stuff and live fully off your writing. You can make the choice today.
Whenever I see a story by you I have NO IDEA what you might write. That's not the same for Haque and Wildfire. I believe all of your readers, though not a huge number, appreciate that.